I am a human being, not a guru or a Buddha. I write. Some people believe I write really well.
I believe words have incredible power because, well, our thoughts are words. We think in words and we use words to interact with the universe around us.
Even with that in mind, just because I'm good with words doesn't mean I have all the answers or that I'm qualified to counsel you, should you need it.
Joking about committing suicide or suggesting it on my blog is not funny. In fact, it's the opposite of funny.
It's fucking selfish.
I believe in life. I believe in living life to the fullest possible extent. I don't know if there's an afterlife or not but it'd be nice if there was. In case there isn't though, I will do my damnedest to live my life in a way that I believe it should be lived. I believe life is a miracle. I believe life is a fractal, a microcosm of the universe. I believe we were put here to love one another.
To joke or play around with the idea of taking all that away is not fair because even if I don't believe you, I will still treat it seriously and will worry about it, late into the night.
Once, in highschool, my girlfriend at the time, whom I'd just broken up with for cheating on me, phoned me at 2am, to tell me she had a broken beer bottle to her wrists and wanted to say goodbye.
So I calmed her down and got back together with her over the phone, even though I didn't want to. I knew, in all probability, she was lying, as she'd done before (never about suicide though) but I could never take that risk with someone else's life. If even the remotest possibility exists that you're serious, the world has to take it seriously.
The first post in this new blog, what I'm hoping will effectively become the news blog for I Wrote This For You, has links to American and international helplines in case you are in that position.
If you just want to talk, I don't mind doing that and I try to respond to every single person that writes to me.
But don't abuse that trust or play with it.
I don't deserve it.